Hurt

I'm so hurt. Times like these, I wish I had a switch to turn off my feelings. Haven't felt this way in such a long time. My mind's in a complete mess, and I can't even find the right words to express the way I feel. What happened to our promises? What do they even mean to you? Why do the people I love, the ones that I've so much hope for, the ones I choose to trust wholeheartedly, always have to end up hurting me? I wish I could shut that side of me out, I wish I could stop caring for everyone. BUT I CAN'T. I feel bad even when I get mad at people. Can someone tell me what I'm supposed to do? I feel confused, I feel broken, but I don't wanna be the one walking out. I don't wanna be given such a responsibility. I don't wanna be the one regretting. I don't wanna live in such misery knowing I was the one who  called the last shot. 

How does one look at someone they love and tell themselves it's time to walk away?